I had mentioned before that this November was my first time participating in NaNoWriMo. But seven days into it, I’m here to say that I am withdrawing.
Now, I’m not one to want to quit something. Giving up is like an annoying fly. I have to keep trying and trying because it just won’t me leave me alone.
But the fact of the matter is, I’m losing the joy I had for my WIP (before November) Ashes Like Frost.
I loved that story. The characters were real, solid. I was studying archaic culture, remembering things, adding cool things to my book. If you were a fly on the wall, you would have heard me giggling with happiness.
And then NaNo came, and I decided to do both of my WIPs at the same time. After all, how hard could it be? This YA idea was a sweet story, easy to write. I could easily work on both of my projects. And day one was awesome, I worked in both, made amazing progress.
Since then I have not. I sat at my desk, staring at my computer screen, the words for neither novel coming and I wanted to cry at the blinking cursor. Wanted to cry at work.
And then I started thinking about the 2017 Winter Workshop, Joy Makers, and what I learned.
~ God introduces Himself to us through creativity and we should enter our writing with God.
~ The biggest joy maker is God and He is ALWAYS there. From Him I have a joy of writing and a huge passion for stories.
~ To write even when the writing is bad, because that is my joy maker. When you think your writing isn’t good enough, you lose your passion and love for it—the joy of writing is sucked right out of writing.
~ My passion for writing should not become a burden—that doesn’t come from God. My writing is something God gave me and the more I enjoy it—the more I find God and get closer to Him.
Philippians 1:6 (ESV) 6 And I am sure of this, that he who began a good work in you will bring it to completion at the day of Jesus Christ.
The sessions were almost a year ago, but I could hear everything fresh in my ears.
It Started When You Saw Me is a story I want to tell, but now is not that time. God gave me this Ashes Like Frost story, and I’m slowly losing my passion and joy for it. And that is something that I don’t want to happen.
This is not the season to tell the YA story, and I don’t want to continue writing something that is not coming from God, but me just wanting to complete a challenge.
A day may come when I do and complete NaNoWriNo, but it is not this day. This day I fight for the story that God gave me to tell, because I hold it dear, and because He gave it to me to tell in this dark world.