Time is such a fleeting thing. It just seems like last yesterday I was finishing high school.
Now here I am with a year behind me in college.
I thought the time for Summer Workshop would never come, and yet here I am halfway packed (I kid you not) and I’ve been to Wal-mart three times, and always forget I what I need.
It feels like a million years since I last posted, but it really has been a little over a month.
In that month my youngest brother has had Little League games, I’ve had CLEP tests, and I’ve done very little writing.
Zip. Zero. Nada.
But I was thinking the other day, I have a spare ten minutes, what do I with that time? There have been some days I wrote but….
Other days? I was on Pinterest, Facebook, or email, or getting ready for my Kansas trip. All good things in their own time. I’m not slamming social media, but everything has a time. And I see now where my precious spare minutes go. I want to use my time wisely, to skip Facebook and read my Bible, to skip Pinterest and write a paragraph in my novel, even if it stinks and tomorrow I erase it, to skip Instagram and help a sibling with a project.
In The Lord of the Rings, Frodo says:
“I wish the ring had never come to me. I wish none of this had happened.”
Gandalf: “So do all who live to see such times. But that is not for them to decide. All we have to decide is what to do with the time that is given to us.”
With the Time that is given us.
What a mouthful to chew.
This always has been, and I think always will be, my favorite passage in The Lord of the Rings. Gandalf with all his wisdom is speaking to me. And such simple, short words have meant a lot to me.
When J.R.R Tolkien was writing these words, it was WW2. Bombs were falling from the sky during the London blitz, there were food rations and gas masks, and no one knew what time they had left.
And much like today, some people might not have seen the point of carrying on, of living, of fulfilling their dreams.
And yes, I have felt this way.
But what if Tolkien gave up? One of the greatest works in literature would have never been written. A work of literature that has inspired and comforted millions would not exist.
In The Two Towers Sam gives a speech:
Frodo : “I can’t do this, Sam.”
Sam : “I know.
It’s all wrong
By rights we shouldn’t even be here.
But we are.
It’s like in the great stories Mr. Frodo.
The ones that really mattered.
Full of darkness and danger they were,
and sometimes you didn’t want to know the end.
Because how could the end be happy.
How could the world go back to the way it was when so much bad happened.
But in the end, it’s only a passing thing, this shadow.
Even darkness must pass.
A new day will come.
And when the sun shines it will shine out the clearer.
Those were the stories that stayed with you.
That meant something.
Even if you were too small to understand why.
But I think, Mr. Frodo, I do understand.
I know now.
Folk in those stories had lots of chances of turning back only they didn’t.
Because they were holding on to something.”
Frodo : “What are we holding on to, Sam?”
Sam : “That there’s some good in this world, Mr. Frodo. And it’s worth fighting for.”
I cry at this part all the time.
What to we do with that time? We can stay silent, or rise up. Because time doesn’t stay still, as much as we may want it to. It passes us by like a great rushing water.
I want to use my time better– I want to decide now, to write when I can and turn off social media– I want to decide to capture in the form of words Jesus’s love for us, and spill it out in books for all mankind. Because that is worth fighting for, sharing such a great love that can’t be comprehended.
That is what I want to do with my time.
That is what is worth fighting for.
And like Frodo, I question why I am here in these very dark days but, “so do all who live to see such times.” And it wasn’t up to me to decide, it was planned by God six thousand years ago when He created the world, because He had a plan for me–and still does! And that takes my breath away, because God has me here for a reason, and who am I to question Him?
And I want to use the time that God has given me to write books that will honor and glorify Him.
And like Mordecai told Esther in Esther 4:14 (KJV):
14 For if thou altogether holdest thy peace at this time, then shall there enlargement and deliverance arise to the Jews from another place; but thou and thy father’s house shall be destroyed: and who knoweth whether thou art come to the kingdom for such a time as this?
Time is such a fleeting thing, used so lightly, but it needs to be taken so much more seriously.
What will you do with the time that is given you, for such a time as this?